People are so frustrating...

I honestly believe that Michigan is a different country. I have been going in circles with my doctors office for the last 5 months now, trying to get a female physician. For some unknown reason, when people who have the health program I have, go to this doctors office, which has 12 doctors, you only get to see the one. Well, I don't want to see him again. Hes an ogre. Literally. Hes like 7 foot tall, about 350 lbs, his hair is unkempt, his clothes disheveled and sloppy, this guy is a walking nightmare. It doesn't help that I have a problem with male doctors either. The thing is, this office could put me with anyone but they refuse to. The health plan I'm on allows me to go to anyone who will accept it. This is mean I could see a female doctor in one of their other offices! Its a special circumstance case and they just aren't trying to work with me at all. Besides this guys appearance, he is a moron. He took one look at my hands and told me I did not have psoriasis. Which I DO have and was diagnosed with having psoriasis by a dermatologist. Hes a physicians assistant. Also, I'm very concerned about the fact that I have diabetes and I haven't been on medication, just controlling it with diet. I did take medication at one time but I had bad side effects from it and stopped taking it. That was several years ago now. Anyway when I tried talking to him about my diabetes he didn't seem to really want to hear about it. He had not ran any tests and had not done a a1c test to check my 3 month average. He tells me he will give me a script for Metformin and I tell him I wont take it because that's the drug that gave me all the side effects. So he leaves the room and comes back, hands me a few samples of Actos and a script for that. Hellooooooo! He hasn't done any tests and has no idea if this medication would be good for me or if the dosage is going to be right! He literally could put me into a diabetic coma just giving me medication without checking me. Besides the fact that with my medical history this medication would be bad for me to try taking. So I ask him, aren't you going to check my a1c? He says yes but you can take this until we get the results. Um NO! So I leave. I'm mad as all get out. I walk across the building to have my blood drawn. Almost 2 weeks later he calls me and says "I got your test results back and well, YOU'RE A DIABETIC". O M G I swear this is exactly what the guy said to me. I said Um yea, I know, that's why I came to talk to you. What was my a1c number? He says "I don't have your records in front of me right now but I can get your file and call you back". So I ask about my thyroid, he says he didn't have that checked. I said to him that was one of the reasons I came to him, because I need a refill on my thyroid medication and I haven't had it checked it a while. Gah! So I get off the phone because I'm just so mad at this point I want to reach through the phone and rip the guys head off his body. He calls me back 3 days later. 3 days... it took him 3 days to get my file and call me back! He says, that my a1c is fine. I'm thinking, alright, I know I try to control it with my diet but whats my number? So I ask him, whats my a1c number? He says "I don't have your file right in front of me but if I remember right I think it was about a 6" OMG! I just go completely off on him. This guy says he is a professional but hes unable to give me my a1c, hes unable to get my file and put it in front of him and unable to give me answers to my questions. What kind of a PA is this guy?? Did he even go through any type of medical school, medical training at all?? Im think this guy did his training in the toy department at Wal-Mart.

I've had panic attacks in the past. Nothing major, I had one in 1999, one in 2000 and maybe 2 others between then and the first of this year. But this year I have been under much more stress than normal. Ive been dealing with a lot of things with my husband and his health care, my own health care for my psoriasis, moving to what seems to be a different country, its been rough and lately Ive been having panic attacks fairly often. Maybe once a week from February to July and in July 2-4 per week. Usually when I'm going to bed trying to fall asleep and bam, panic attack. It's a horrible feeling having a panic attack and feeling like something horrible is just about to happen to you and knowing its all in your head and yet not being able to control it. I end up having to sit up in bed until I calm down and get tired enough to doze off or I get out of bed all together. Well today, I had a bad panic attack. I sat up in bed, I tried to calm myself down. I keep repeating in my thoughts, this will pass, this will go away. Its not stopping. I get out of bed and go to the living room, sit on the couch, turn the tv on and try to relax. Its just not working. I'm so upset I start to cry. So I go get a washcloth, get it wet, sit back down and watch tv. Eventually the feeling subsides and I fall asleep, on the couch. I wake up 5 hours later and oh my goodness I have a headache so bad it feels like my head is being compressed in a vice. I get migraines every now and then, but this wasn't a migraine, this was just a very bad headache. 6 Tylenol and 6 hours later its just now going away.

Well this brings me to today. I NEED to find a doctor I can feel comfortable with. This stupid health program is terrible as in most doctors don't want to accept it. The program is meant for people who have no health insurance but have an income and don't qualify for medicaid. Funny how things works out sometimes. Anyway, I've been trying to find a different doctor, a female because I'm more comfortable. Its bad enough I'm limited with who I can go to, its worse that anyone would not be given a choice whether to see a male or female doctor.