A year older

Well, I didn't think I would get through my birthday but yet again, I'm a year older. My birthday was completely uneventful this year. Well if you don't count crying lol I have been missing my mother really bad. Even though I can pick up the phone and call her whenever I want, it's just not the same as being able to be with her and spend the day with her. So I called her on my birthday, talked to her for a few minutes, hung up the phone and cried. Then I took my shower, got dressed, dried my hair and then I cried. I miss both my parents so much.

So I pulled myself together and told myself I would have a good day anyway. We are on a very tight budget right now and well, nearly everyone in my family forgot my birthday so no one made me a cake, gave me a card or anything. My mother in law took me to dinner the other day for my birthday, so I guess she was the one person who remembered. I decided to make a cake for myself. I mixed it up, poured it into the pan, it smelt so good even uncooked. I set the timer and went into the living room. A while later, about 50 minutes later, I realize the timer hasn't gone off. I go to the kitchen and take the now burnt cake out of the oven. I set it on top of the stove and say happy birthday to myself. I look at the timer... I didn't push the start button *sigh* so I put frosting on it anyway, because my husband will eat anything burnt. The cake is crunchy. I cried again.

So through all the crying, midnight finally came and now its just another day like any other. Thanksgiving is in 3 days and that will be yet another holiday I struggle through. I will try to make the best of it just like I do every day.

Hope this finds everyone well and happy, stay safe!

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Autumn

With autumn in our midst it's now time to pull out the winter clothing and weatherize the house. So I've pulled the plastic storage boxes out of my closet, hung my sweaters and filled the dresser with warm snugly clothes. I dont believe winterizing is going to help us much. The house is fairly well insulated, but unless we spend a fortune on plastic for all the windows in this house, which there are many of, the cold air will blow in anyway. Older homes are always more difficult to weatherize.

After Halloween we had some trouble at our house. Some young teenagers came onto our porch and we believe were trying to steal 2 large cement eagles weighing around 60 lbs each. We heard them on the porch, the dogs barked, we heard giggling, got up to go open the door, heard them yell run, and yelled at them as they ran out of the yard. So we called the police. Lucky us, our town no longer has a police officer. Our law enforcement was apparently cut due to lack of funding. This means that we have to rely on law enforcement from the county and state. Calling 911 is no longer a 5 or 10 minute wait, its a 45-60 minute wait. So dispatch had me on the phone and asked us to follow the teens in question while they tried to get law enforcement there. These teens were so violent. I was shocked. At 15 years old and younger I never would have acted with such disrespect and anger towards an adult much less towards another human being at all. This 15 year old boy threatened us with bodily harm while another boy around 13 years old taunted him chanting "beat his ass". What has become of our youth? What has become of parenting? I never acted this way, my parents would have not only grounded me for life but I would not have been able to sit down for a month. My step children never acted this way and grew into upstanding young people of society. So why is it that people in their 30's and 40's can't control their children? Something needs to be done. The officer showed up at the scene with this group of teens yelling and screaming and sent my husband and I home. Wait, what is this? Yes, they told us to go home. They show up about 10 minutes later and say that they let the kids go. Not only did they try to steal the eagles off our porch, but they smashed our pumpkin in the yard, stole a strap off out boat and threatened us with physical harm. WTF? You let them go?? I exclaimed. The officer told us that he is unable by law to even question a minor without their parents or a lawyer there. So we ask, why didn't you arrest them? He says, the one kid said you hit him and his girlfriend with your crutch (my husband can't walk without them) and if you pressed charges they would too. We knew we hadn't done anything wrong and had not hit them so we said we want to press charges anyway. The officer refused to do so and left.

So in the end we are left fearing our property damaged or physical harm to ourselves and these teens who did this after dark on a Sunday night get away totally free, not even their parents were notified!!! I'd also like to know what has become of law enforcement. These kids now KNOW they can get away with ANYTHING they want because the police will not do anything to them.

So my husband and I have made a decision. We are going to move. We love the area here but a town with no law enforcement is dangerous. The kids around here are too volatile. We are not protected and the law is not on the side of law abiding citizens. So we looked at a house for rent where my husbands parents live. We are supposed to hear back on Saturday if we get the place or not. We may not as others have also applied. So we are praying that we get it. If we don't we will most likely wait until spring and then find somewhere to move.

So that's the excitement for the week. I hope everyone elses week is going smoother than ours :)