Headache again...

I dont know where this headache came from but ugh my head is killing me. It feels so tight. Im on my diabetes medication now. I dont think the headache is a side effect from it but only time will tell. I havent taken anything for it because it says not to take any nsaids without talking to the doctor to make sure its ok first so tomorrow Ill call her and find out. Also they called Friday about my urine test last week. I have protien in my urine which means my kidneys natural filters arent working the way theyre supposed to. This is a problem that a lot of diabetics have. She said theres no reason for alarm but that she wants me to go ahead and start taking a medication to protect my kidneys from damage. To me, this is a little bit scary. Kidneys are major organs, to me its like having a heart problem. The organ stops working you have some major issues. So its very important to me to make sure I take good care of them. Ive already started to lose weight. Due to the thyroid medication alone. I just have to be more concious about my health. Take care of myself.

Anyway, Im going to be doing some canning tomorrow. Pickling green beans and making salsa. Ill pickle califlower later this week too. Ill be posting the process on my cooking site.


So, I hope you all have a great week, Im going to go get rid of this headache!

Light at the end of the tunnel

Well today is a new day and I feel pretty darn good! I haven't felt this good in a really long time actually. I want to get out of the house, go pick up my prescriptions from the pharmacy, maybe do a little shopping too. I sort of feel like having home made subs tonight. We'll see, Ill probably change my mind before I even get to the store lol

So my doctor visit went well yesterday. I love my doctor by the way. I didn't know if I would or not, but she has proven to be very thorough and very attentive with my medications and answers all my questions well. She cares and it shows. She raised the dose of Celexa to 30 mg. I fell asleep last night it was wonderful. Last few days was hard to fall asleep. Today I feel mentally and physically better really. It must be getting into my system now. I want to smile, I want to do things, I want to laugh and have a good time! Yes it's working :) I think I'm in love with Celexa right now.

She added a new medication to my list. A diabetes medication, Amaryl. I haven't taken this one before and like always, Ill be leary taking a new medication. I don't like taking medications to begin with. I have to keep in mind that I trust my doctor. I guess I'm always paranoid about the side effects of medications especially if I haven't heard much about them. Like I'm going to have those side effects and then I'm going to die lol I need to relax I know!

So now I'm on Celexa, Synthroid, Amaryl and Ativan (for the occasional panic attack). She also wants me on a multivitamin to get my calcium and vitamin d, so Ill be picking one up today when I pick up my prescriptions.

In general, I feel great today. I feel like there is finally some light at the end of the tunnel. Like its the first day of spring and the sun is shining for the first time in 6 months. It feels great to feel great! I'm loving this feeling :)

I hope you all have a great of a day as I am having!

Oh joy...

Well I am now on day 19 of Celexa. The feeling of wanting to cry and feeling hopeless has gone away. But I still feel like I am not myself. Im not "happy" Im just... here. I can now get mad though. I got rather angry with my husband the other night. He did deserve it dont get me wrong lol but I dont feel I should have felt that angry over the situation. Also, today is Monday and since last Friday I have been having trouble falling asleep. Last night was especially hard. I laid in bed for probably about 3 hours or so trying to fall asleep. My mind was racing. Laying there in bed, yawning every few seconds because I was just so incredibly tired, but a million thoughts were going through my head, like my brain was wide awake but my body was begging to give in. When I did finally fall asleep I couldnt stay asleep. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I started thyroid medication the end of last week. I see the doctor in 2 days and I can tell her whats been going on. Maybe she will up my dosage.

Anyway, other than that its been pretty calm around here. The leaves are starting to turn, its so pretty. I keep telling my husband its going to be an early winter this year. I think we will have at least one snow around Halloween. He says not until after Thanksgiving. Im going to start practicing on my bow this week. Bow hunting season starts next month and I need to work on pulling quietly so I dont scare the deer in the next county. I have a 65lb bow, Id like to get a 50 or 55lb but this year mine will work fine. Just have to build up a little bit of muscle in my right shoulder and upper arm for pulling. Im pretty excited about this season. It will be my first bow hunt. Ill be suprised if I get anything at all lol Im hoping for at least a 4 point though.  Also salmon season is coming up and Ill be doing a bit of fishing too. Going to get some energy out of my system before the snow gets here and Im house bound except for doctor appointments and grocery store visits.

Oh also we will start decorating our house with the christmas lights before Halloween this year so we have time before it gets crazy cold. Im going to decorate the porch on Halloween and have a big bowl of candy for the kids to trick or treat. The last few years we lived so far out in the middle of nowhere that we didnt get to pass out candy so it will be a lot of fun seeing all the costumes. We will also eat junk food and watch scary movies into the wee hours as we do every year.

Alright, well I just wanted to give everyone an update. Im going to get a snack and watch a movie. Have a great week!

Day Twelve

Hi everyone. Well it's been 12 days I have been on Celexa. I'm falling asleep with no problems and sleeping well. It takes an unusual amount of time for me to wake up or to feel like I'm awake. I have had no panic attacks in the last 12 days although on 2 occasions I felt very edgy and anxious, I still have not had to take the Adavant which is supposed to be similar to Xanax. I still don't feel like myself. I go through the motions during the day but its as if its someone else and my mind is just along for the ride. I don't feel I have my energy back. My emotions still feel dull but I'm still getting irritated with things and feeling like if someone made me mad I'd jump all over them. I feel like I can't put up with anyone. Maybe that will change also I don't know. Last time I saw the doctor she talked about possibly going to 40mg if 20mg wasn't working but I think I need something different. Ill talk to her about how I'm feeling when I go in next week.

Onto other subjects!

My garden is so overgrown now but I have managed to keep the tomatoes somewhat clear, at least clear enough to go pick some just about everyday. The corn looks like I somehow stunted their growth lol Short little things they are, I have maybe 3 or 4 ears of corn about 3 or 4 inches long growing *rolling eyes* I'm not much of a corn farmer I guess! My onions are growing somewhere in the weeds lol Im going to try to get out there the next cool day we have and weed it out a bit to find the onions. I only had 2 rows so it shouldn't be too hard. I did pull one out. I thought it was going to be a decent sized onion and it was no more the size of a golf ball LOL Oh well, I chopped it up and put it into the quiche I made a couple of days ago.

My husband was playing with our cat Rufus today and so I made a video of it and put it to some really corny but catchy music and added it to Youtube.com which I tried to link here but I'm not sure if that's working well or not. Seems it keeps trying to put some random video I've never seen on there but the link I posted in today's post should work if you don't see the right video on the right side there.

Alright, I need to be off to do other things, like getting dinner together :) Hope everyone has a good week!

Oh my aching head!

Well the Celexa seem to be working for my insomnia and my panic attacks as its been 7 days today and I havent had one panic attack yet. I was anxious yesterday and today I feel very on edge though. Since starting the Celexa though, I have had a headache. Its always there, sometimes worse than other times. So I called my doctors office and talked to the nurse. My doctor is out today so she is going to talk to the nurse practitioner and ask about a medication change or what they think I should do. She is also supposed to ask if I can take some Tylenol because I'm not supposed to take certain things with Celexa.

I watched a video the other day of someone who also takes Celexa. She described her general emotions on it as "stifled" I didn't really understand what it was until now. Its like you know how you should feel but your feelings are sort of smothered. I can get angry, but not how I normally would. If something sad happened, I don't think I would be able to cry. I would just be like... numb. Thats how I'm feeling, just numb. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I can sleep and I'm extremely glad I haven't had a panic attack. But I feel numb most of the time. I can get a giggle at something but then I go back to feeling numb. My body isn't numb but my mind sort of feels that way. I know medications take a while to really get into your system and your body takes time getting used to them so I know this feeling might not last. Thats if they don't change my medication to something else.

Well just got the call back from the doctors office. I can take Tylenol yay! They said the headaches are normal and they should go away so Ill keep taking this for now and see if they go away or not. Maybe my mood will improve where I'm not feeling so out of it.

Anyway, I'm going to take some Tylenol and chill out, maybe my headache will go away. Have a great day everyone!