Oh my aching head!

Well the Celexa seem to be working for my insomnia and my panic attacks as its been 7 days today and I havent had one panic attack yet. I was anxious yesterday and today I feel very on edge though. Since starting the Celexa though, I have had a headache. Its always there, sometimes worse than other times. So I called my doctors office and talked to the nurse. My doctor is out today so she is going to talk to the nurse practitioner and ask about a medication change or what they think I should do. She is also supposed to ask if I can take some Tylenol because I'm not supposed to take certain things with Celexa.

I watched a video the other day of someone who also takes Celexa. She described her general emotions on it as "stifled" I didn't really understand what it was until now. Its like you know how you should feel but your feelings are sort of smothered. I can get angry, but not how I normally would. If something sad happened, I don't think I would be able to cry. I would just be like... numb. Thats how I'm feeling, just numb. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I can sleep and I'm extremely glad I haven't had a panic attack. But I feel numb most of the time. I can get a giggle at something but then I go back to feeling numb. My body isn't numb but my mind sort of feels that way. I know medications take a while to really get into your system and your body takes time getting used to them so I know this feeling might not last. Thats if they don't change my medication to something else.

Well just got the call back from the doctors office. I can take Tylenol yay! They said the headaches are normal and they should go away so Ill keep taking this for now and see if they go away or not. Maybe my mood will improve where I'm not feeling so out of it.

Anyway, I'm going to take some Tylenol and chill out, maybe my headache will go away. Have a great day everyone!

A new day

Well today is a new day. After my doctor appointment yesterday I was well... rather upset. I wanted to be on a different anti depressant than what I was put on. I cried last night. I talked to my mom on the phone, I miss her so much. I listened to what my mom had to say. Then I had the rest of the night to think about things. I'm going to give this medicine a chance to work. Even though I have been on much stronger in my past, this is what the doctor chose so I'm going to give it a couple of weeks and if it doesn't help things or doesn't at least help my sleeping situation like she said it would, Ill tell her I want to try something different. So for now, I'm on the weakest off all antidepressants. She also didn't give me Xanax, she gave me Ativan instead which I didn't do any research on Ativan and when I had my panic attack last night I didn't take the Ativan for it because I didn't know anything about it and therefore didn't take it, I just rode the attack out, all 3 hours of it. I have to have blood work done on Monday. I couldn't do it yesterday because I have to fast for one of the tests, cholesterol, so instead of drawing blood for my thyroid and A1C test on one day and cholesterol on another, they're doing it all Monday. So Sunday Ill be fasting and have my blood drawn Monday. I see the doctor in 2 weeks, on the 16th I think, Ill have to double check that though, it may be the 18th. Then I should have all the medications I need. At this point anyway. Unless of course she makes me continue the antidepressant to give it more time. But if it doesn't help my sleeping... OK I think I went over that already.

So last night I was able to get a little bit more sleep than I have in the last 2 weeks but I did wake up 4 times. We were supposed to go to a graduation party for my son-in-law but being on the new med, not sleeping well and just the way I'm feeling in general, we felt it wasn't the best idea for us to go. Its a 2 hour drive one way, then a ton of people I don't know and a whole bunch of children, I just don't think I could deal with that today. Plus I have this major headache which I don't know if its caused from the medication or just one of those things. I do feel bad because my step daughter is upset with us now for not coming. But I hope in time she will understand why we didn't.

Well on another note, its just another rainy icky day outside today. It was cold yesterday, cold enough for sweatshirts and long pants. Yes its summer in Northern Michigan. Today its chilly enough we are sort of bundled up and I'm thinking about what type of soup Ill make for dinner. Maybe Ill make cream of potato but I'm also thinking of making Saturday soup too. But cream of potato sounds so good doesn't it? Well whatever I decide to make for dinner Ill be sure to post it on Kel's Kitchen along with the recipe for you. The link to Kel's Kitchen is on this blog, you should check it out sometime.

Well I hope everyone has a good day today. Im off to find something to do and maybe grab a snack before getting dressed and going to the store. Until next time...